爱的生存之道 The Pursuit of Happiness

终于我看完了《爱的生存之道》，好突然就结局了，好不舍，因为真的太好看了啦！是一部偶像剧但走的风格有点像《我可能不会爱你》很写实，有些情节蛮生活化的…由隋棠和杨佑宁主演，但我比较错愕第二女主角是新人歌手谢沛恩。我很喜欢她的歌她的声音，我是透过《我可能不会爱你》知道她，《旋转门》就是她唱的，《我可能不会爱你》插曲 …

Recently, I've just finished watching the latest Taiwanese drama The Pursuit of Happiness....The best Taiwanese drama I have ever watched! In Time with You is the second....  If you have watched In Time with You, you might also like this drama. The way of this drama exactly like In Time with You very realistic, meaningful, but the story is completely different...I don't often watch Taiwanese drama, unless I'm interested in that celebrity or really nice to watch
Starring Sonia Sui Tang (Top Model in Taiwan), Tony Yang You Ning and the New Singer Aggie Hsieh Pei En....I like Aggie because of her voice and her songs..She is a amazing singer, btw (by the way) she has 1/4 of American descent... One of my favorite song is 旋转门  I was very surprised that Aggie was one of the character of this drama! I never thought that she would be involved in this drama... I believe that she doesn't have much acting experience, her acting isn't really that good....Anyway that was a good try

人生得那么无奈吗？他从我这里学会怎么爱后，却爱上别人了…这么多年一直守着这份爱，一直以为有天他会回头，会知道我还爱他…看着他最后爱上别人.....为她改变以前我一直纠正，而你打死也不改的缺点，为她做你以前不会为我做的事，你的贴心你的温柔不再是我的....看着你说现在的你有多么幸福，甚至还要我祝福你，我真的做不到，我的心真的很痛，我真的很不甘心…不甘心我白白等待的爱情就被人抢走了，不甘心我的爱被你忽视，不甘心你爱的却不是我....

到底是因为习惯了有个人在身边陪着才有爱，还是因为爱了才会不习惯没有你的生活？很多东西一旦习惯了，就变成理所当然....

我很喜欢这部戏，很好几个桥段偏偏讲中我的感受，我曾经也有过爱一个人，结果看着他跟别人天长地久，失恋的那两年，听着情歌会感伤，在街上看着他那么幸福心里很酸，更难过的是他却要我祝他跟她幸福，试问有谁受得了？

How you feel if you love someone but that person loves someone else...or you've been waiting so long for his love, at the end he told you that he got a girlfriend and he wants you to wish him happy, also, he ask you to forget him. Too bad, I had this experience when I was 18 years old. When I heard he said how they met each other, how they fell in love, how they started the relationship, when I saw they being so sweet at outside, I felt like the end of the world, I felt like I lost everything in my life....
Anyway, this is my past...Just I have felt the same way with the main character, and this is the reason why I say the best drama....Although this is a drama, but I agree that is a true while we are searching for love 

因为爱情

想必大部分的人开始写文章是因为当成日记写吧…有些人用来发泄，有些当成好友述说心事，有的写生活上的乐趣，有些利用它拿来赚钱或是让更多人知道自己....刚开始可能还有动力去写吧....久而久之变懒了，偶尔会更新一下，有些人甚至停止更新....

每天搞到半夜四点才入睡，我迟早会垂死！昨天游览了朋友的博客，她没更新快要一年了…其实我跟她的友谊也已经冷淡了好几个月了…翻回她过往的文章，大部分都是记录伤心事…在最前的两个文章里，发现她的前任给她留  然后我也很好奇按进去看他的博客。很久以前她跟我说过，那男的之所以会开始写文章是因为在他们第一次分手时，他为了挽留她才写的。这我也看得出来，2010写了六篇后就没再写了，直到2013年共写了六十一篇，不过是在分手后又开始写。这一次的挽留并不成功，因为我朋友分手后就停止写文章了。男生的文章确实感动到我，分手后才知道对方的好，才知道自己是爱对方的…

其实我也有点内疚，当时我们还是那么要好，她经常跟我诉苦她的感情事，我有时认真听也有时候觉得她小题大做。看了她的博客，原来她是真的不开心，身为好友的我却不怎么关心她。她曾经怀疑他对她的爱，那男的是真爱还是只是习惯，我不清楚，我只是知道到最后一刻才对她心急，到处透过她身边的好友想知道她的想法，真的太迟了....

很多人都说只要有爱就够了，一切都能解决的。我从她身上看到，这句话就像童话故事一样，都是哄人骗人的话。不是我要把爱情贬得一文不值，它本身就那么脆弱。我也曾以为爱情就那么简单，直到上一段又让我成长了许多。


我甚至不敢读回自己写过的东西，因为都是不开心的回忆

Groupon made my day =)

Chinese New Year is around the corner  my mum says nowadays people don't want to celebrate festivals because the economic is getting worse, that's why I totally can't feel the celebration at all! 
I am not excited for this, but I am looking forward to going to Port Dickson during sem break!!! People always say that "no sweet without sweat"  so before the trip I have to fight my final exam  few subjects only, I can bear it =(  and now I wanna show-off  something that I have been talking - the Grand Lexis 

The actual price is around RM1000 or above  price is depends on room   but now we get the cheapest price from groupon, only need RM500 for 2 person and we stay in deluxe suite room!!! The coolest thing is we got own private swimming pool in room
He says Grand Lexis is the most luxurious resort in Port Dickson...the most cheapest room also need RM700++ which means we get a lot of discount from groupon
Well.... this is a random post, I will post the detail of Grand Lexis again after the trip =)

Dongdaemun Korea BBQ Restaurant @ Melaka Raya

2014 started, the new beginning, but there's nothing special for me, no celebration, just stayed at home and watched tv whole day....Even though 2013 has passed but I still gonna write about the Christmas Eve..I really can't feel the Christmas last year, the people don't seem like celebrated the Christmas here, I never heard the Christmas songs during Christmas (radio, shopping mall......) Anyway, his birthday also falls on Christmas Eve, so I brought him to Korean restaurant to celebrate......

最近发现一家韩国料理的餐厅，位于马六甲的Melaka Raya，就在粥店“粥家村”的对面而已喔！

It's located at Melaka Raya, Malacca...opposite the famous restaurant Porridge House 粥家村  I found it when I was taking supper at 粥家村 Business hours: 10am till 1pm and 3pm till 11pm if I'm not mistaken 

Foods are nice and good service, the boss of this restaurant is a Korean, means those Korean foods are really make by real Korean people

All is my favourite, kimchi soup, bibimbap ( rice), bulgogi (korean barbecue), eggs  When I ordered the bulgogi, I thought that we can barbecue ourselves, at the end I saw they passed me the pork my face was like "sweat"  how I wish I could make myself, I never do that before

上次去一家也是韩国人开的韩式料理餐厅，而这间韩国料理餐厅的老板也是韩国人，也就是说食物都是正宗的韩国料理！老板还带着两，三个儿子开店，韩国男生蛮帅的！我去的时候店里空空无人，不是因为生意不好！是因为我去吃的时候是下午四点，下午四点才吃午餐，听起来蛮悲惨的.....这间餐厅的营业时间是上午十点至一点，下午三点至晚上十一点（如果没记错的话）晚餐时间的话一定是人很多啦...

More and more Korean restaurant in Malacca now....If compared with another Korean restaurant Koreana  Korean BBQ Restaurant, at Melaka Raya... I prefer Koreana  Korean BBQ Restaurant because Koreana has provided two-person set, family set, they do have a lot of choices of foods....Anyway, I think those Korean foods are very common actually, more or less same no matter which restaurant you go.....

服务不错哦...吃完饭后会附上冰淇淋，自动附上的....一直以为可以自己烤肉吃，结果他们是烤好了再送上来，应该是我点错了吧...要不然就是要特别跟他说要自己烤....除了小吃之外，饭哪那些都是点一份，然后我们两个人共私吃，因为怕吃不完...这样吃一餐大约RM70....

曲婉婷签唱会马六甲站 Wanting Say the Words Promo Tour In Malaysia @ Mahkota Parade Malacca

Finally the most popular singer, songwriter Wanting Qu 曲婉婷 came to Malacca yesterday!!! I like her voice because it's so powerful, special, easy to recognize and got the feeling when listen to her song. I knew her since she was released the hit songs "You Exist In My Song 我的歌声里" and Hong Kong's movie theme song "Drenched"....

This girl was very lucky, her voice is pretty good and was attracted Wanting, she was asked to go to stage by Wanting and sang "Admit 承认" with her...

She is very  friendly, keep giving a hug to her fans... and can see that her style is exactly like a American (currently, she lives in Canada), keep flinging her hair....I must say that her hair is so pretty and soft and dark, kinda envy  it =p and I like her English pronunciation, American slang teehee... and even if she was sick and coughing but she still sang very well with played the electronic keyboard

Two new song she was performed, "Love Ocean 爱的海洋" and "Exit This Way"

The Daily Grind @ Bangsar Village

Gonna write about food this time... I don't usually blog about food, quite lazy to introduce and I have no idea how to write how to start. Sometimes we really need inspiration to blog, aren't we? I often post "food things" on Instagram and write a simple introduction to share with friends....

Why wanna blog about this? I know this restaurant from a friend's Instagram, when she was posting the red velvet cake. Yeah... it attracts me hehe... I've been scrolled Instagram and google search for food recommendation, seem like the foods are very good. Thanks my boyfie for bringing me here =) Realized that Bangsar is a food paradise, there are many different types of restaurants and cafes...I know Bangsar, but I've never been there before.

The Daily Grind, name of restaurant, which is located at Bangsar Village, ground floor. It's easy to find, if you have GPS.

Oopssss!!! Sorry for my failed photography skills, I'm not an expert... I like the wall decoration, such a creative by using pipe, in fact, it's a plastic pipe....

Alright, let me introduce what we ordered.... Japanese Yodel Burger and Downtown Tokyo Burger

He ordered beef burger, Japanese Yodel burger RM35. Smothered with cheese fondue source, sauteed mushrooms and topped with mushroom tempura ( Copied from menu hehe..)

Sick and tired of chicken burger, wanna try special burger that couldn't find in my place Malacca...I'm not judging it, of course Malacca has a lot of delicious local foods, I'm just telling the truth, I couldn't find any special or awesome western restaurants in Malacca 

I think I'm off the point...continue to introduce hamburgers... the Downtown Japanese Burger RM30, is a deep-fried soft shell crab with wasabi mayo and rocket leaves... Don't worried about wasabi mayo, it wasn't choked actually...both serving are quite huge, filled our stomach up, felt very full till hard to get up

Their service are very good, my boyfie forgot to buy candle, so he requested for the candle...so glad they have candles and they didn't charge. Even though my boyfie didn't order drinks, they also gave him a glass of water, it is free!

Red velvet cake RM12, the reason I came....A simple birthday celebration =) Appreciated it! taste is so good but a little bit sweet..I am not a desserts lover, don't really like it, unless it's not very very sweet...mostly hunting for western, japanese and korean food

There have many varieties of foods, brunch; pastas; hot dogs; sandwiches; the types of burgers: beef, chicken, salmon, crab and lamb; mains: chicken, salmon, steak; children's menu; and desserts 

Total around RM100 he paid it, thanks for buying me lunch... Honestly it's very expensive but worth, never regret to eat and will go again 

遗憾

有时候我在想，如果当时我能够成熟一点接受他的生活习惯，我们又会在一起多久，故事会不会不一样，就连分手也会不会好好说再见。自从我开始谈恋爱以后，再也没有见过他了....偶尔会偷偷去看他的facebook，虽然被锁上什么都看不到，可是还会透过他的女友和他的朋友那边，想知道他在不在这里，有时也会希望在路上巧遇....毕竟他是我第一个爱的人

我总是跟自己说做人不要留下遗憾，想好好说再见就说，想留下那个人就留下，至少把心里话都说出来，至少做到觉得应该做的事，不管他人要走或留下，至少我的心不会后悔当时少做了一些事。很多人都说我很固执，对一件事很执着，很想不开....每次我想跟那个人和好，旁观者都会说“把误会都说了又能怎样，反正又不会像以前一样那么开心，反而只会把场面弄僵，把自己弄得很尴尬” 太多爱面子的人就因为有这样的想法，每次遇到对方，心里一定会觉得尴尬，难受，不知所措....还会骗自己说假装看不见。故意避开，难道不觉得累吗？

我只是觉得我不想等到突然一天觉悟了，才自责才后悔。留得下的人就勇敢把他留下，留不下的也不要再做太多余的事让对方更加讨厌。人总是等到了失去才会珍惜，等到了临死前的一刻，才知道原来还有太多事没做到。

幸福。

最近很喜欢一个人，喜欢静静地躺在床上看一整天的戏，不希望被打扰；喜欢打扮得漂亮去走街，不想要一直回复人家的短讯；喜欢开车听着收音机，暂时把脑里的烦恼清空。

每当在人群中，就会带上耳机听着手机里刚下载的歌，只不过想要掩饰自己的不安和尴尬。

我喜欢跟朋友聊天但也喜欢脑袋放空的时候，一个人很好，只是在人群中时很需要一个伴。

昨天去了朋友的生日会，跟朋友聚一聚，有说有笑是一种幸福吧！

看着朋友和她的同学追来追去，手上抹着一大片蓝色蛋糕的奶油，试图想把对方的脸弄脏，那也是一种幸福吧！

看着妈妈帮最疼爱的小儿子把被弄脏的脸擦干净，那是一种幸福吧！

用着大人说话的语气，平时跟朋友开玩笑的方式套用在弟弟身上，故意把他气疯，一脸河豚样跑去找二哥求救，那也是一种幸福吧！

这一晚过得很开心，很不舍...一个晚上感受到别人的幸福也是一种幸福。回到家虽然很累，在四面墙的空间里，不知道是不是因为人多热闹的关系，到家后有种幸福里提带一丝的空虚感。

缺陷美

有时候很羡慕别人身边围绕一群朋友，然后在看着镜子里的自己，看清楚脸上是不是真的写上“难怪你没朋友”这句话。昨天莫名跟一个其实也不是很熟的朋友长聊三个半小时，我问他觉得我身边多朋友吗，他就说“如果你朋友多，你就不会只找美珊了啊” 被泼一句冷水心里当然很不好受。然后我再问“我的脸上真的写着“难怪你没朋友”这句话吗？”他说“虽然你朋友少，虽然你的朋友只有她一个，但你的朋友都是真心朋友。至少你跟对方说心事，你不会怀疑对方会不会说出去，不用猜测对方有没有在认真听懂，不用担心说出来丢不丢脸，对方会不会笑你。有些人朋友多，但能帮忙的没几个，猜测朋友是不是真心其实也很累。”

难受后又得到他说的重点，心里有一点点感到骄傲，好像这就是我一直在寻找的交友条件。对着她我可以很放心的做自己，就算我哪里得罪了她，她也会很大方的不跟我计较。她真的生气的时候，会直接发我脾气，我们吵架了冷静十分钟后，她会主动跟我和好。她也会担心要是我单身，而她忙着工作，就没人听我陪我难过了，因为她知道我很需要一个依靠。有着她这样的朋友，想到我们之间的互动都会傻笑。就连我的男朋友也羡慕我对她的好，我跟她之间的亲密。

我一直也想找个像美珊一样的男性朋友，一方面觉得有一个男性朋友在某些方面可以得到帮助，一方面也是因为看着别人有而我没有的东西。人性很奇怪，买了跟别人一样的东西，买的那刻有着一种满足感，回到家后就开始后悔，觉得买了一个不属于自己的东西很浪费。就连好朋友的男朋友说话都输给我，如果真的找一个男性朋友，想必友谊应该只有一个月吧....我有何必挖洞给自己跳。

我不知道这份友谊会维持多久，但我知道我现在这一刻一定也会有别人在羡慕着，所以没必要去羡慕别人的生活吧....每个人生活上都会有缺陷，其中那几块缺陷可能也会有人羡慕着，所以骄傲地拥抱自己美好或不好的生活吧！

感慨

其实人在送礼的时候到底在想什么？是因为别人礼貌上想回个礼？是因为觉得不送会丢脸？内疚而送？看在感情份上才送？还是真心想送却又觉得买不到一个对方没有的东西才随便买？昨天在收拾房间的时候，发现有很多东西是以前不想不愿丢的....那些东西收太久没用过，久了长满灰尘，还占了很多空间。

才短短4年，身边的人，事，物就像翻十多页的书一样，一下就翻完了。有时候还蛮想念那个朋友的，4年的感情我们是如此这么的要好。分手后，她就变了个人一样，怎么劝都不听，而我们之前的距离越来越远。第一次那么觉得我们之前的话题搭不上，第一次觉得我融入不了她的新生活，第一次觉得她很陌生。其实有时候她没人陪还是会找我出去，只不过前几次跟她出去的时候感觉自己像个装饰品一样，看着她玩电话还多过跟我聊天，而且对我有很多事隐藏。自己是还蛮生气的，毕竟我们曾经那么要好，多希望我们是因为争吵才不合，可能我还不那么耿耿于怀。上一个星期我们见面了，感觉很尴尬，好像除了最近好吗，新环境习惯吗，工作怎样就再也没话了。

有一次也遇到一个朋友，她跟我说别说是4年的感情，20年的友谊也会遭背叛。她还说她现在知道身边只要一个好的朋友，一个疼自己的男朋友，好好赚钱养小孩就够了。感情放太多，不舍得又能怎样。就像那些我不用的东西一样长灰尘，引来昆虫，房间看起来很脏。丢掉那些东西的时候我没有遗憾，没有不舍。突然很认同那个朋友的话，朋友两个字只是形容词，没有事是永远的。

爱在巴厘岛 Bali Trip

2013 08 18 Day 4

在巴厘岛的最后一天，也是玩的最最最尽兴的一天，我人生中有很多的第一次都献给了巴厘岛，挑战了自己以前会怕的事。去参观海龟之前，我们到了Mekar Sari玩水，其实做小船过对面海龟岛，只需要十多分钟，导游给我们两个小时的时间自由活动，想玩水的就下去玩。巴厘岛四处都是海，当然要下水玩一下咯！这个是不包括旅费的，因为有些人要玩有些人不要，玩水的票就必须自付。其实有很多个选项可以玩，可是每一个我都没尝试过，所以先选最安全，最容易的先挑战....再说我们团里太小的又太小，太老的也不好，我的表姐也不敢下水，除了小我九年的堂弟陪我玩之外，也找不到其他人了。

我玩了两种选项，一个是太空人，一个是浮浅就是浮在水上面的。本来想玩潜下水的，还好我没选那个，浮浅已经够难了，我学不会用嘴呼吸，抓不到诀窍，一直喝到海水啃到超辛苦的。太空人很简单而已，戴着太空帽，潜下去走一圈看鱼。水一点都不深，不过真的会一直耳鸣，要一直吞口水，太空帽非常的重又大，我的下巴一直被敲到，很不舒服。

别以为我抓的动物都是假的，我可是冒着生命危险在抓，尤其是那只大鸟和蟒蛇。我跟那只鸟拍照时它突然张开翅膀一下，我多怕它的翅膀打到我，它的抓一点都不利，站在我的手上不会痛，可是它真的很重！一直以为蛇皮是冰凉的，我摸它的皮，是有点像人的体温，蛇皮却是摸起来有点恶。说了那是大蟒蛇，如果它突然咬我一口，会有死亡的可能....至于蝙蝠我就没想要抓，不过它真的会咬人，我的亲戚试图想摸它的身体，它看到手指指向它，它张开嘴要咬。我抓海龟的时候，可能它们受惊过度，从我抓起来那一刻，它的前翼一直拍动，拍得很快，像是打巴掌打得我的手超痛的！进去一间小木屋，里面有二十只左右的大海龟，都是年长，活了很多年了。

我觉得巴厘岛超适合年轻人去的，巴厘岛说大不大，说小不小，有很多地方，有很多美景都还没到过。我本身没去过泰国的Phuket，不过我还是觉得巴厘岛比Phuket更好玩吧....巴厘岛有什么东西能买？如果旅行只为了购物，倒不如去香港，台湾那些购物天地的地方。来到巴厘岛我觉得真的很省钱，把钱都花在玩的不是很好吗？四天三夜的巴厘岛对我来说还真的不够玩，我是真的还愿意再去第二，第三次，有机会去，当然也不会再去同一个景点啦....